the self and lies we tell it.
Dec. 10th, 2004 10:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
joegodaBeloveds,
We all believe our worth comes from a single thing. Sex, money, intelligence.
This is nearhuman, and I'm as much at fault as anyone else. I'm finding as I
get older that I'm seeing my intelligence is only a part of it. Spirit is all,
really. Look at the things we value in other folk.. goodness, dependability,
love, kindness.. and then look at ourselves. Do we also not have these
capacities? Are we so shallow of ourselves to think that our worth is only
connected to a single aspect of our multi aspect lives? Are we not a part of
the universe and therefore so folded an origami that it would be near
impossible to unfold us and find the one thing that is the paper of us?
I am no different than you in this aspect, and just as guilty in
believing that my worth is based upon ONE thing. I'm learning that this isn't
true because the Universe has created a situation where that one thing cannot
save the ones I love. So I turn to other aspects and find that I'm more than I
ever considered. So are you. So are all others on this planet.
There is a loved one who is a person who believes her past. She has problems believing her
future, and does not want to believe her present. when I speak of her, I
speak of all of us.
She doesn't anger me, any more than I anger me. She is another aspect of
me, as I am one of her, as we are aspects of you. Think on this.
I know an angry young man and he is trying to find his one thing. He is looking at
different lies in search of the truth. Unfortunately, the world we have
created allows us to continue to believe our past, try to ignore our present,
and not accept our future. He is not lost, he is searching. He will be
successful, sadly, and find the ONE thing that he believes makes his worth,
rather than the multitude of aspects that make up him, and makes him part
of everything, of the Universe.
For the one that started loved one on her road.. It's hard to say. Everyone has a
teacher at some point. Multiple teachers, in fact. The lessons that ring
truer to us are generally the ones that touch our greatest guilt. We believe
the guilt and use the lessons we're taught to enhance that guilt to the point
that finding absolution becomes our ONE true thing. For me, it's that I'm not
smart enough, rich enough, good enough to get out of a jam. It's the "Save me"
principle where I fear saying "I can't".
It's my being able to fix things.. that's my ONE thing. Somethings I just
can't fix.. this is what I'm learning. Now .. accepting.. that's a different
matter.
We all believe our worth comes from a single thing. Sex, money, intelligence.
This is nearhuman, and I'm as much at fault as anyone else. I'm finding as I
get older that I'm seeing my intelligence is only a part of it. Spirit is all,
really. Look at the things we value in other folk.. goodness, dependability,
love, kindness.. and then look at ourselves. Do we also not have these
capacities? Are we so shallow of ourselves to think that our worth is only
connected to a single aspect of our multi aspect lives? Are we not a part of
the universe and therefore so folded an origami that it would be near
impossible to unfold us and find the one thing that is the paper of us?
I am no different than you in this aspect, and just as guilty in
believing that my worth is based upon ONE thing. I'm learning that this isn't
true because the Universe has created a situation where that one thing cannot
save the ones I love. So I turn to other aspects and find that I'm more than I
ever considered. So are you. So are all others on this planet.
There is a loved one who is a person who believes her past. She has problems believing her
future, and does not want to believe her present. when I speak of her, I
speak of all of us.
She doesn't anger me, any more than I anger me. She is another aspect of
me, as I am one of her, as we are aspects of you. Think on this.
I know an angry young man and he is trying to find his one thing. He is looking at
different lies in search of the truth. Unfortunately, the world we have
created allows us to continue to believe our past, try to ignore our present,
and not accept our future. He is not lost, he is searching. He will be
successful, sadly, and find the ONE thing that he believes makes his worth,
rather than the multitude of aspects that make up him, and makes him part
of everything, of the Universe.
For the one that started loved one on her road.. It's hard to say. Everyone has a
teacher at some point. Multiple teachers, in fact. The lessons that ring
truer to us are generally the ones that touch our greatest guilt. We believe
the guilt and use the lessons we're taught to enhance that guilt to the point
that finding absolution becomes our ONE true thing. For me, it's that I'm not
smart enough, rich enough, good enough to get out of a jam. It's the "Save me"
principle where I fear saying "I can't".
It's my being able to fix things.. that's my ONE thing. Somethings I just
can't fix.. this is what I'm learning. Now .. accepting.. that's a different
matter.
