Tain't Gone, just not quite here

I'm semi off line for a while. I'm having some minor issues with my left arm, so my postings will be fairly brief. Just to let you know that I'm not ignoring you, I'm just not answering you.

But man, some heavy, heady questions... Not to mention soooo many new spirits around me. I'll be writing more tonight, just cuz.. I don't like getting behind, so owies be damned.

A brief interruption, before continuing with my tale of my life.

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I've just realized that I've gotten into an armwrestling match and I retired from the field years ago. Not only retired, but I'm outmatched and outclassed. Now, a conversational discussion dealing with quantum particles and their interaction in the cloud of personal reality is really great when I'm sitting there with a pint in my hand and at least one in my belly and I can rest my brain from the overheat situation that tends to happen when I start talking about things theoretical. When it comes to dealing with quantum concepts, it's easy for me to start getting out of my league, as there are an incredible amount of folks out there that have more education and understanding of the physical universe than I do.

In talking about the mechanics of how energy transference and manipulation occur, the best minds I know can only speculate at what really happens. If I start talking about potentials and cloud movement and energy states, it's all postulation, with no basis in fact other than my poor understanding of how physics work.

Almost all of my knowledge comes from a hodgepodge of experience, book larnin', and pure guess. The guesses are backed up by continued experiments and experience.

I have a belief that basically says that if praying to a JuJu gets you what you pray for, and you truely believe that the JuJu is responsible, then by gom, the JuJu is responsible, as far as your reality is concerned.

I have seen and been part of healings and rituals where things 'impossible' in the Newtonian world of physics have happened.

All of my thoughts and postulations and hypothesis result in this belief. That we are part of the Universe, and the Universe is nothing more or less than a coherent energy signature. That's it. I spent a number of years wondering how it all worked, and came to the conclusion that it really didn't matter how it all worked, it just did.

Granted, because of the way my mind works, my rudimentary belief of how it works enables me to interact with what I percieve as the machinery of the Universe better than if I had not asked the questions. OR so I believe. It could have very easily been that I had kept my childmind open and just simply accepted the concept that when you wish upon a star, that the little folks took care of things, and angels do indeed look over our shoulders.

The result would have been the same.

I gave up wondering about the workings of the machine when I realized there were and are so many more important things in life. Like enjoyment of that life. I know that I find so much more entertainment in a field of butterflies than in seeing the energy signatures and the interaction of the clouds they make up. I made a choice long ago. To be human, rather than More than Human.

It does not mean that when I reach out to push or pull a warm or cold front one direction or another that I don't recognize the mechanics of it all. It just means that the how is less important then the why. Keeping my friends and loved ones dry on a picknic day is much more valuable to me than the knowledge that I have created an excited state of electrons, creating an upflow of warm air to modify the travel patterns of a particular river of cold air.

How does it happen? It happens because it happens. In the Infinite Universe, I was cursed or gifted, depending on your outlook, with an ability to see energy to a degree, but more importantly, to see patterns. Before folks start to ask, I don't see colors from auras. Most people, when I look at them, look like starbursts of light.

This is really all I know, true and true. Energy exists. And everything is nothing but. And energy interacts with energy, causing potential to become kinetic.

I though a long discussion would be a fun thing. It was, but I find it tires me a bit more than when I used to be soooo serious about it all.

Doesn't mean I won't talk about it.. just means that it doesn't hold the same attraction as a child's laughter, a mountain stream, hot cocoa on a cold night, or the softness of a lover's skin.

What it does mean is that I won't argue about it. Your beliefs and certainties are yours and if they work for you then rock on! There is no promise or guarantee that mine will work for you, only that we may share enough common experiences (called living), that you might find a bit of wisdom in mine that can fit your situation. And the same can be said of me from your bits of wisdom

Rev CjB