I don't know if it is beautiful or not, but it is how I feel. Never having truly fit into the rest of society, and always having been hung up on this subject, I have spent years trying to figure out why I always fail at this 'Falling in love' thing, why I can never have a relationship on a one to one basis. I realize that Never is a very strong word, but I do believe it is appropriate when applied to me.

It isn't that I am not supposed to love as other people do. I'm not wired that way. I can't love that way. For me, I must love all of you, or none of you. I choose all of you.