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Finalities
Oct. 9th, 2004 12:55 pmWell.. it's done. It's over for the most part. I said my fare the wells to Jamie to day in his memorial. It was a small group, but a good group and I just couldn't find it in me to be funny until after the service.
The whole thing lasted 2 1/2 hours.
All the time it was happening, I kept thinking "This should be Bigger!" I knew Jamie wouldn't have liked it that way, but there was really no way I could think of that this dinky lil memorial could possibly encompass all that he was.
Tim and Sherry were there. My roommate had to work. Sam and Cindy were there. About 5 folks that I never knew where there. 45 of them left after the service to do what ever it was they had to do.
I am alone, and that's probably a good thing. I need to be alone right now, because there are so many things going on in my head that I can't stop and sort them all out.
James is not gone.. he's outside, looking in.
The whole thing lasted 2 1/2 hours.
All the time it was happening, I kept thinking "This should be Bigger!" I knew Jamie wouldn't have liked it that way, but there was really no way I could think of that this dinky lil memorial could possibly encompass all that he was.
Tim and Sherry were there. My roommate had to work. Sam and Cindy were there. About 5 folks that I never knew where there. 45 of them left after the service to do what ever it was they had to do.
I am alone, and that's probably a good thing. I need to be alone right now, because there are so many things going on in my head that I can't stop and sort them all out.
James is not gone.. he's outside, looking in.
